"you know that feeling - the sadness, that feeling that you’re alone? so you go out with your friends. you get drunk. you get high. and you dance til the sun is out, but you go home and the sadness sinks in again. you’re just as alone at 8 AM as you were at 8 PM."
i nodded my head yes, but the truth is i didn’t know that feeling.
i don’t ever miss the mere presence of someone. i don’t wish that i had somebody in my arms at night. i don’t long for a boyfriend.
i miss specific people. i wish i had him in my arms at night. i wish he was my boyfriend.
and if it isn’t him, then i don’t long for it. i’m fine with being alone. i’m usually alone, but i never feel lonely.